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1. I think looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel is more difficult for me, but looking into people’s eyes in general is weird for me. I don’t know, it’s kind of chilling, looking into someone’s eyes, don’t you think?

2. The last time I was really angry was after I watched this documentary in History class, it was called Ghosts of Rwanda. It was about the Rwandan genocide and it was life changing to be completely honest. It was painful to watch, to sit there and know that the world turned it’s backs to one of the greatest atrocities of mankind, ever, I’d say. I don’t know, it made me angry to be American. I really am anti-nationalistic these days. “Nationalism is an infantile disease, it is the measles of mankind.” -Albert Einstein

3. If I only had time to make one phone call, I’d probably call my sister Asha. I would you know, tell her that I love her and just articulate all of my feelings for her and my family. I would tell her everything I wanted to say to everyone I love, and ask her to pass the message along. I would beg her not to be sad for me, and to continue on her life. I would ask her to live for me, to do the things I couldn’t, to watch Doctor Who and think of me in the back of her mind, and smile in rememberance. I would ask her to sing-a-long to Arctic Monkey’s songs at the top of her lungs when it’s raining as if I were sitting right next to her, singing with her. I would probably start crying, and say some stupid quote by Ghandi, and then I would tell her to stay golden and then just listen to her voice as long as I could, and just coexist in that moment, before my death. 

4. If the doctor’s told me I only had one month to live I would tell everyone that I was going to die, only so that they could prepare themselves, though I’m sure there is no way to prepare yourself for something like that, but I’m sure they’d make it through. I would go to the airport, close my eyes and pick somewhere exotic and random. I would eat, I would eat, I would eat. I would pray, I would, unquestionably, if possible, travel to Mecca and do my hajj. I would tell everyone everything I’ve ever wanted to tell them. No regrets. I would just be happy and healthy for what little time I had left and enjoy my final days with my friends and family. I don’t think I would be sad, because I’ve lived my life, and I believe in better things to come :)

5. If I had to chose between love and trust, I would, without question, chose love. I want to find love more than anything, more than words. I want to find someone who is just as close to me as possible, and I’m confident that I will. I want someone to watch Veronica Mars with, someone who shares the same music taste, and the same taste in movies. I want someone who is kind, and endearing, and passionate about anything, honestly. Apathy plagues me, so I want someone who can inspire me. I want my better half. Do love and trust not go hand in hand? Can you imagine not trusting the one you love? xx